All Alone :)

So it's June 27th and I'm setting all alone in B&N. I'm deep in thought over the things of life. :) Well I am but I'll save that for another post. I told my mom I was going to do a depressing post today. You see all my family ran off and are having fun and left me all by my lonesome on my b-day and to top it all off I had to work an 11hour day today:(.

But I can't do a depressing post. My family has treated me better then I deserve. They had a party for me on Friday and mom made me cheese cake . It was so vary good! Also before she went to Africa my little Sis Kriss made some frozen dinners for me for my b-day present. Which has been a real blessing now that I'm moved out on my own (well I was moved out, I just moved back in for a couple days until I can get in the house I'm trying to buy). Thanks Kriss. Kriss and Bek also sent me letters today :) First since they left :-/ but they did act like they missed me. :).

I woke up this morning to the rest of the family gone off to visit Jo but mom had left me a big bag of my favorite cookies :). I'm so lucky. Since no one was home I decided I'd just work as long as I could so that's why I worked an 11hour day. Working long days are good for me, it keeps me out of trouble and my mind occupied on other things then the trials of life. Even though I'm alone on my b-day it's still been a good day.

So ya I'm still setting in B&N. Just killing time by people watching. Lol that's always a fun. I've been watching this guy who is setting by the fire flirting with his girl. :) hehe it sorta funny. I'm looking at him critiquing his style and the way he is acting around his girl:). I thinking to myself how much of a dork he is. His hair is brushed from both sides to the middle hmm and every time he takes a drink from his frappuccino
he squints his eyes makes this stupid face and looks like he's got a brain freeze. Haha. Well if that's his way of impressing her it seems to be working. :). Hmm maybe I should try that some day. Lol.

Just had a girl working here ask me if I was done reading a book that is setting on the table next to me. So I look over to see what it is and it's this kids (computer geeks kids) comic color book. I looked up at her and just laughed. She just gave me this really cold look and I stopped laughing real quick and said um you I'm not reading that. Hmm I had the feeling she wanted to smack me with it. Lol I don't know why??

I'm also watching a group of parents in a really intense conversation on how to save the world :) lol no just on how to save there kids soccer league. It's funny they are acting like it's a life or death deal. Hmm people lighten up there's so much more important things to stress about.
Well I'm starting to get bored setting here and it's a really nice day out. I feel like I'm waisting my summer. Guess I should go do something. OH WoW!! Well that just put the cherry ontop of my day. Have ever seen an extremely fat lady walk on extremely tall high heels?! Um ya you don't want to. I almost filmed it to share it with you. But ya that would be right now wouldn't it?! I'm squinting right now as she walks by afraid that the heel part is going to snap of and fly up and hit me in the face ;-P. Lol well I better get out of here before I get hurt. Hmm if anybody really takes time to reads this post you've got a lamer life then mine. I'm sorry. I really I'm. :)

For My Dear Sister

Me and my Little Brother

When i was younger i loved playing sports. Any kind of sports. It didnt matter what it was i just loved playing. So im always trying to get Jock to play some sport with me. But besides hockey he never wants to. But the other day he told me he wanted to play baseball! I was really shocked! Out of all the sports thats the last one i figered he would want to play. So i want and got us a bat and some balls. It was such a nice day saturday. So we grabbed are gear and went to the baseball field. It has been forever since ive played baseball. I had to choke back some tears when i got to the fields. Ive got so many fun memories of staying out late playing softball with friends. Things have changed so much and life seems really hard sometimes but God is good and I'm thankful for the life he's given me. I feel guilty in a way because I had such a fun childhood and always got to go out and do different activities with friends. But Jock never really had that. Its makes me really sad. So I'm always trying to involve him in whatever I do. He is my little brother and seems to annoy alot of the others in the family :) but I have fun with him. He's one of my closest friends. I spend 90% of my time with him when im not working . I really want to be a good influence on him and pray he doesnt make some of the bad choices i have made in his life. We had so much fun playing the other day. Just me and him. he made me pitch the ball fast pitch and stood in there and hit the ball. LOL the first ball he hit came back and smacked me in the shoulder. After he saw that he said WoW im not pitching for you! :) I coached him on hitting and catching and getting infront of grounders and not being scared of the ball. The funny thing is that im freaked out when some one hits me a grounder. I remember i would always ask to play shortstop because i thought it was the coolest position. But was always scared of getting hit. Whenever a grounder was hit to me i always tried to make it look like i tried really hard to stop it but i usually was trying to avoid it but make it look good at the same time. :) bet you guys didnt know that did you :P? Here are some pictures and videos. Jock was so funny when he threw the ball, doing some sort of leap as he threw it. It was fun